• 5:32 AM, Wednesday, August 15, 2007
受夠了
Recently, got to be the downest moments of this monthWhile i had succeeded in my oral, my personal life is not
really such a blast. It is something serious i must say, thus
i don't really felt like putting icons on today.
somehow, i decided on a certain day that there is the last straw
i am sick and enough of protecting ナナ, yes, i declared a "fight" with her. I don't mind at all she go out with the 電視機, even though honestly, i do not really like him. however, this is her choice, i have no rights to say. what really went wrong was she used my name to cheat on her mother as a cover while she happily go out with 電視機. this is truly the last straw for me. She is betraying her mother's trust and cheating on her and me. And, the best part is she have no remorse. I tried to explain to her nicely, but i found out that if i tried to talk to her, i will really blow my top off thus writing in a letter and explain to her will be wise. I didn't give to her personally because i know that she will probably not read it and throw it away(which was what happen later).So, i asked 少爺 to kindly help me give her. i hope that my true words will explain some senses to her. Yet, in the end, she still disappoint me, she read and throw it off the window, telling people she don't care, she think i am in a foul mood and want a 冷戰 with her, saying all the stuff that she is game to play this 冷戰 game with me When i mentioned Nothing about 冷戰. In the end of the day, she acted like i was in the wrong and i really think she wants me like always to make the first move and say sorry to her. she gave me a 大小姐 look today and acted as if i was the evil party.
I really have nothing to say, A part of me gave up on her today. I never thought she was so insensible to give any thoughts of her actions. I don't even know why i am protecting her from all the people out there to harm her when her mother don't even know where she is and she don't even show any remorse when she is in the wrong place. Probably because everyone is nice to her and conspired in her way, she don't think about how people feel in this case. I sometime wish ナナ was back to the old ナナ i know before all the dramatic changes she made. Now, i somehow don't even know her. I can't give any serious talk to her as she had become too playful. My mum and my other friends told me not to care about her, but a part of me still want to help help her and protect her. I guess i am just a typical Leo, my friends mean a lot to me. but sometime, they end up hurting me, and really bad. As i am typing this last sentence, i am crying. it is real and i am not faking anything, 我真的受夠了, but i guess she will never see this blog entry even after i gave her this blog address. 她不會明白也不會去明白一個真的被傷害的人是什麼滋味.
Song in my player:横浜ラブストーリー by Charlotte(しゃるろっと)- It sings my story.
